Invisible Secrets & Visible Power's: "We are who we are waiting for"

In these prophetic times it is appropriate to use biblical names.  If I were to adopt a name, it would be Brother Thomas.  Why?  Because the disciple Thomas, in my shared opinion, was closest to understanding how Christ's mission was to be carried out.  Accordingly, even Thomas had failed the test Jesus gave to Peter, Mathew & Thomas.   In short, the mind, which Jesus describes as 'the bubbling spring' is what distracts the disciples from taking in what Jesus was teaching. Jesus said "I have measured out the bubbling spring."- meaning Jesus is in a constant state of being/knowing/understanding which goes beyond the mind.  Only in the absence of mind can one fully receive from a master, whether Jesus, Buddha, Mohamed, Lao Tsu, or other masters who are so rare among the human species.  Lately, I have felt the anguish of failing to carry out the teachings of a master.  So, back to the 'here and now'.  Guilt gets one nowhere (the bubbling mind allows the past to haunt & wear down one's spirit).