Been through hell I’m back

bringsI've got so much to tell you all the whole so much it's going on Around us. Volcanic activity, Palestine ethnic cleansing, the uprising in Myanmar and Philippines, shootings, police  brutality, systemic racism, sexism, evangelicalism taking away reproductive rights of women to politicians involved with teenage girls and drugs, to the dumbest people in the population refusing to do the right thing. Brings us to the planetary movements that will rock June and everyone in it!

After a long few weeks of working through a lot of different types of issues and dramas and depression trying to get used to my new face and deal with the scarring and anxiety and working and finding out that my familiar has been starved to death living with people who I have  known for 10 years and kept telling me she was fine She was not fine at all then at any time should Have been  taken to a vet i would have paid any amount at any time.  I'm utterly destroyed by what I saw and I didn't get to say good bye or spend time with her at all. Completely broken I have no idea how I'll recover and feel forgiveness how do I deal with this aMy poor shinobi I'm so sorry I didn't know!