Stop Child Abuse Now (SCAN) - 2666

Tonight's special guest is Randy Lail from Charleston, South Carolina, who was abused by his father. He explains, "My abuse started when I was 3 and ended at 14. A lot of my abuse memories were repressed for many years but through therapy I have recovered most of them. The early years were just with Dad. I didn’t like what he was doing to me. On some level it felt wrong, but it also had a weird sense of normalcy to it." Randy explains, "I am 60 this year. I was the youngest of 4, a sister and 2 brothers. My parents are both deceased. Dad, my abuser, was a larger than life figure who strangely enough I looked up to until he died at the age of 75. My Mom was the consummate Southern Belle, lived by the adage; don't tell anyone your problems, especially the family secrets. Our family was always perfect on the outside." She goes on, "I am no longer in any ongoing therapy; I do see my therapist on an as needed basis to talk through new memories (last time was a year ago). Biggest thing I struggle with today are post effects from all the conditioning I underwent during the later years of my abuse (sexual manipulation & Satanic rituals, i.e.: Moloch)." Randy concludes, "I came to believe and understand the abuse wasn't my fault!!! For many years I could never grasp that truth. For me, healing is a “HEART” issue. Intellectually I knew it wasn't my fault but deep down my heart believed it was my fault. I have learned that without a whole and vibrant HEART, our soul will never truly heal and our SPIRIT can never sore."